Should I be happy??

Runner..!!! A new challenge ahead..!!!
yeah, it's like finally..after waiting for dunno how may months, days, hours, minutes and seconds, finally i've the oppurtunity to be runner tmr, LOL..so happy that i can learn new things and working in a totally different space, KITCHEN..!!! i'm getting tired of being waiter and recept too, i can't wait no longer to be runner, so i talked to OOTORO a few days ago..i requested to be runner but she told me that Uni wanted me to be recept, saying that i had good smile and whatver bullshit !@#$%^&*
OOTORO is so nice that, she was not supposed to let me be runner, yet she did..she asked me to prepare myself well tmr to tell Uni that i wanted to learn new things as working in the kitchen and still would be recept on weekends..let's hope that nothing bad is going to happen tmr, lol..and i wanna learn and pick up fast so that i would alternatively be waiter, recept as well as runner..WOW....!!! so nice..imagine i could work in different sections throughout the weeks, so that it would not be so boring, hihi^^ i like challenging job and learning new things..TEHEEEEEE

Should I..??
keep asking myself..would one be fool enough to step into the past..take the path which is alrdy taken once and it's a wrong one..or perhaps, turning over a new leaf and start afresh..??!! keep going and moving on..let bygone be bygone..as saying goes, people come and go..i dun like the feeling when u've alrdy gotten used to something or get along with someone often, it's like a habit to see and talk to friends who u stick often with, and suddenly due to some reasons, parting would likely to take place and heart is being occupied by loneliness and anguish..
i really dunno.......

我会学着放弃你，是因为我太爱你。。。。


Fear..
Randomness..is there something behind it?? what makes u treating someone extraordinary good out of the blue?? Beats me..!!! should i accept the kindness or reject?? what would others think?? is it just simply "cares"?? No, i shouldn't think of other things else..although others might think differently..so long as i don't mean anything other than that simplicity, that would be fine..that's it, and it's beyond my control..we can't expect things would turn out the way we want, same as we can't stop people from talking nonsense..just hope that friends and others who are close would understand instead of making fun of it..

Should go to sleep now..get more rest..!!!
Nitez ^^